I LOOKED AND I
SAW
THE LORD
VISIONS GIVEN TO ANNIE AS TOLD TO R. EDWARD MILLER
PREFACE
Since the time of the earliest man's wonderful walk with God
in His garden of fellowship and its abrupt end because of man's
willful disobedience, these man's children have been trying to
regain this beautiful communion that was lost. After intimacies
of loving fellowship, the Holy God had to expel man, that
beautiful creation destined for Himself. The "flaming
sword" in the hands of His holy one still guards the way
into His true Presence.
The creature was created to love and adore and bless the Creator.
The absolute inability to do so has frustrated and tormented
mankind ever since the light went out. Man's puny religious
efforts to tear down this wall of separation has spawned the
multitudinous religious systems of the day. He has consistently
refused to recognize that it was his sin of wanting to act and
live independently of God which raised this sin barrier.
True Christianity is the Presence of God again with man. This is
the great purpose revealed in the Old Testament Scriptures and
climaxed in the New when Jesus came. God so loved us that He came
in Christ, and in His life, death, and resurrection completely
restored man to Himself, placing us as sons in a new and heavenly
sphere. By a new birth - a new creation - God comes to His place
prepared for Him in us.
The price of actually obtaining and living this life of holy,
joyful, victorious, adoring Love is so high but so very simple
for Him. All is freely offered in His great grace but nothing
eternal is cheap. There is His death that must be worked in me
daily. There is the discipline over mind and body. I must learn
the subjection of all my naturals in the earnest search for the
Lord Himself. There must come the horrible revelations of my
sinfulness that causes me to humble myself in deep breakings at
His feet. Then there is the often very painful circumstances
arranged by the Master to sift out my flesh that opposes His
perfect will.
In the measure that I come to know deep breakings at His feet and
before my brethren and in the honest repentings of my sinful ways
before God and man, He pours in of His own life and love. He also
teaches me how to put on His beautiful garments of holiness,
praise, and adoration.
This is all so vividly portrayed by this young believer to whom
the Lord is daily revealing Himself as manifested in these
visions. From her recent initial contact with the Lord Jesus,
there was given an intense desire for Him until it became a
daily, disciplined, all-consuming longing. This culminates in
hours of seeking until He can reveal Himself and His great love
for her. There is never any seeking of visions or for even His
blessings but for the Lord Himself, alone, to love and to adore.
The Lord's highest purpose is a people brought unto Him for a
high, holy, love communion so intimate that for us it can only be
likened unto the marriage union. He takes these from the base and
despised of this world - those who became great sinners in their
own eyes as well as His. By one personal experience after another
with the Lord these are cleansed, delivered, and brought unto
Him.
The Lord will jealously go to no ends to release His chosen ones
from that which steals time and attention from Him. This is the
Bride for which He came to sanctify and clothe to present unto
Himself without spot or blemish.
The same Lord is now very really reaching out in tender and holy
yearnings for His own. At the same time there is put into motion
all the awesome activity of the Godhead to put down His enemies
beneath His feet. To separate His own unto Himself, these visions
denote the use of tremendous operations of every means: adverse
and afflicting circumstances; persecutions; demon forces;
supernatural signs. All of this is so amply confirmed by the
Scripture.
A peculiar significance of these revelations is that these are
the last days for man's reign! More clearly than ever before He
is saying, "Get ready now! Stop all activity that isn't
wholly from Me, by Me, and for Me!"... (Especially the
religious.) Let repentance and a broken spirit before Him be the
normal place for love to break forth! Be clothed with Christ and
His transforming, all-covering love as the motivation for
everything! (It is everything for He is love).
Awake! Awake! For these warnings are to the professing church!
Not everyone that says, "Lord, Lord, shall enter..."
nor even all the miracle workers!
"No man can come to Me except he be drawn."
"Every plant that my heavenly Father has not planted shall
be rooted up."
"It is your own selves you must test to discover whether you
are true believers. Examine yourselves. Or do you not know that
Jesus Christ is within you unless you cannot stand the
test?"(Wey.)
"For the great day of His wrath is come and who shall be
able to stand?"
"Judgment has begun at the House of God."
Though these glimpses into that other world are not to teach
doctrine, they do confirm God's ways. But for those who rigidly
and religiously hold certain particular doctrinal views these
might be strong meat.
The true spiritual content and purpose even in these heavenly
scenes are hidden from the religiously wise and revealed unto
those childlike in spirit. It is this elect company that has been
given a glimpse of the Lord and His great love. As a result,
these have been struck down by the awful sense of their own
sinfulness and complete helplessness apart from Him. Yet enamored
with that "Fairest of Ten Thousand", they are being
prepared and taught in these divine principles - His ways.
For them there will be found by prayerful contemplation in these
last-day visions, blessed invitations and confirmations which
will lead into the "banqueting house" of that
Altogether Lovely One, "And His banner over me (is)
love".
"The marriage of the Lamb is come and His Bride has made
herself ready".
"She has been permitted to dress in fine, radiant linen -
for the fine linen signifies the righteousness of the
saints". (Ampl.)
Jack Schisler
THE STORY OF ANNIE
April of 1949 - the month that revival began in Mendoza,
Argentina - was also the month that Annie was born. Raised in a
cultured home, all went faily well with her until she was about
sixteen at which time she entered into a most high state of
rebellion and deep estrangement from her family. Going out into
the world of sin, she became an actress in the theater where she
came up through the ranks until she became the star of her
company.
In spite of having everything she wanted in a fairly well-to-do
family, and being able to do almost as she pleased, she still
found neither love nor happiness. Hounded by the evil spirits of
suicide, she attempted to take her life four times and was only
spared because God so ordained it. Filled with deep rebellion,
restlessness and consuming anxieties, she suffered inexplicable
anguish and fear. Her problem was also compounded by cancerous
growths that gave her much pain. For many months she could eat
almost nothing and was often in intense pain as she was acting
out her roles in the theater.
Seeking help in medicine and in psychiatry, her family spent a
small fortune but all to no avail. Their desperation increased to
the unbearable point after they had exhausted every possible
means of help.
Just at this time a cousin invited her to accompany her to a
certain church on Sunday morning. Out of courtesy she consented
to go, but went in a high spirit of rebellion, dressed in a most
flagrant manner. When she entered the church she challenged the
pastor to throw her out and made it most clear that she was in no
frame of mind to accept anything that he might want to tell her.
It happened that I was visiting the same church that morning, and
when the Holy Spirit began to move over the people, He sent me to
pray for this stranger who had entered an evangelical church for
the first time in her liffe. Being totally agnostic, neither she
nor her family knew anything at all about God or the Bible. Yet,
from the first moment, God reached out His hand to her. Bowing
low in deep repentance, Annie found the first measure of relief
she had ever known. Returning to other services she was only
partially released, for when she returned to her home all her
problems returned just as before.
One Sunday morning several weeks later, God told me that He would
bring her to the service that evening and that I was to insist
that she return with me to Mar del Plata, for she could not
receive full deliverance where she was.
"What an amazing order!" I thought to myself,
"when I do not even know the young lady's name."As I
talked with her that evening, I learned that her name was Anna
Marie (Anna meaning "full of grace"and Marie -
"bitterness and rebellion.") When I asked her to come
she was thoroughly amazed at the audacity of my demand and
presented every possible excuse to keep from going. But even as
she talked with me - she told me later - each excuse was refuted
by a quiet voice within which convinced her that it was indeed
possible for her to go. Surreptitiously packing her suitcase and
slipping it out of the house, she quietly left the next morning
without advising anyone of her going.
The first night in Peniel, God moved out to her delivering her
from the fears and oppressions of the enemy, the spirit of
suicide and all the other forces of hell that had bound her life.
With great praise, high worship and strong faith as their
weapons, the whole student body, together with the ministers,
joined joyously and fiercely into the battle. Those evil ones
that had raged against the Holy Son and His Spirit were
conquered, fleeing before the light and glory of His presence as
she cried, "I am free. I felt them all leave!" And, of
a truth, free she was.
The next night as we were singing, "Oh, the Blood of
Jesus", the Holy Spirit came to her in a glorious new birth.
Glory, peace and joy washed into her soul as faith laid hold upon
the cleansing stream of blood. Radiating joy she began to sing,
dance and glorify the Lord. In a trance the Lord transported her
into the heavenlies where she found herself ascending through
stratas of light and darkness until she found herself in fullness
of light.
The next night as a cleansed and empty vessel she was filled with
the Holy Spirit. God so moved upon her in glory waves that she
was transported into His presence and ended with peals of
laughter - she who had formerly been so filled with anguish -
until everyone was laughing gloriously with her. Even though she
had never heard them before, she sang all the choruses along with
the others as if she had always known them.
Free, clean and filled with the glory of the Lord she moved out
to minister to one and another of the needy ones without ever
having heard about the anointing that flows out to others.
Instinctively she knew, or rather was obedient to the direction
of the Holy Spirit within. There was a beautiful deliverance.
Three weeks later God came to her and began a healing of her
body. His fire came upon her and in two sessions which lasted
about ten hours she was literally operated upon by God, bringing
up out of her body great quantities of putrifaction and pieces of
the vile growth that had laid hold upon her. Finally, she was
almost choked by a part of the growth that was hard, rubbery and
white and was about five inches in girth. It seemed that she
colud not pass it up through her throat. But the fire of God so
increased within her that one young lady who touched her burned
her fingers. Suddenly as she made a great effort, this huge
growth literally popped through her throat and mouth. Through the
operation of the Divine Surgeon upon her small body she brought
up some four quarts of putrifaction.
From the very first, her life was one of total commitment and
love for her Savior as He placed within her an insatiable desire
to seek His presence daily. The Lord told us that she was a very
special but fragile vessel and that He had purposes of ministry
for her. From the first He took her into His world and showed her
things up there. The visions and trances continued for a while
before we realized that these were more than normal visions that
He gives to any one of His children from time to time. From the
beginning as she sought the Lord, giving more and more time to
personal, private prayer apart from the regular meetings, God
began to take her in an ecstacy into the heavenly world and show
her many things. At first He showed her most specific things
which in the months that followed took place exactly as He had
shown her.
Finally, God spoke to me to write these things down. As I began
to do so in obedience to Him, I realized that He was speaking to
us in a new and unique way.
It is of special note that Annie had never read the Bible before
coming to us, neither has she received any religious teaching of
any type. Her lack of knowledge of all that refers to God was
total. Nevertheless , the visions are extraordinarily exact and
in conformity to Bible teaching. It is also important to note
that she never comes willingly or exaltedly to tell her visions,
or shows any pride in the telling of them. To the contrary, with
an extreme reluctance even involving deep fears, great pain and
many tears she brings these things to light. It is also
noteworthy that she cannot tell them in a flippant or easy
manner. Only after a time of prayer as the presence of the Lord
draws near does she even want to talk of them. They are too high
and holy to be able to casually put them into the thought and
tongue of man. Although they are brought forth in much travail
and the pain of that travail, there is a "must" of the
Lord laid upon her. She would avoid telling them if she could but
she cannot. She also would desire to stay in the heavenlies and
not return, but when she asked the Lord about it, He told her
that He had healed her because He wanted her to stay here and do
a work for Him.
She fears greatly lest she err in any of these things. Knowing so
little of the Bible or of its doctrine, she is in great fear and
almost panic that somehow she has been mistaken in something, and
with great reluctance she brings them forth so that they can be
proved. The Lord told her that she must bring them to me so that
I may approve and judge them, which she does, bringing everything
to light that He shows to her. She is most transparent.
In the earlier days after her conversion, the visions meant
nothing at all to her, for she could not even understand the
symbolisms, knowing nothing of the Bible or of God's ways. At
that time, the only things she knew were what she saw and heard
up there. She only knew that He had showed it to her and
commanded her to tell it to us. This ignorance brought her great
oppressions, but now she has progressed in her knowledge to where
God now shows her in a trance and vision a specific church or
person. She has traveled with us to minister in those churches
and there tells what God shows her regarding that church. This
has brought much blessing.
Annie is a very lovely, yet religiously ignorant, child upon whom
the hand of the Lord lays heavily. She who before was so filled
with rebellion that even the psychiatrists marvelled is now so
obedient and submissive unto the Lord and unto us, her pastors,
that we often marvel. Because of His word to us to take her into
our home as our own daughter, we have watched her life at the
closest point of observation - the home. And still she proves out
to be just what she is: a genuine prophetess and seeress taught
of the Lord who speaks forth the word of the Lord in much fear
and trembling. So fearful is she of erring and somehow
"missing it" that there has been no room for pride and
self-exaltatoin to enter in. God has protected her from this
tremendous snare by so filling her with the fear of the Lord and
the fear of erring in the things of the Lord that it is actually
painful to her spirit and soul and a constant wall about her to
save her from herself. Apart from this she is a very normal
person for her age. She doesn't walk around with a halo, as it
were, nor with a religious holier-than-thou attitude. She likes
to play and share life with others normally.
We of the Argentine church who have been privileged to watch her
growth in the Lord from the closest vantage point have been
edified and inspired by His work in her. Her life is so
transparent - she never hides from us what she is thinking or
going through, but in honesty and transparency she bares her
soul. We have been challenged anew in an even deeper realization
of the supreme importance of daily hiding away to seek His
presence and to hear His words.
Her growth has not always been easy nor without heavy enemy
opposition, directly or indirectly. Nevertheless, the fruit of
His work in these few months of her life in Him has drawn us all
nearer to the One who for years we have loved, and has given us a
fresh and refreshing quickening of the Scriptures which we have
read many times. There has come a renewed decision and dedication
to seek Him while He may be found and call upon Him while He is
near.
This booklet has been prepared with the prayer that the sharing
of these visions will cause you to love and seek Him even more,
and make even more real that invisible - yet, very real - city to
which as pilgrims and strangers we press.
Since the visions have continued, there will shortly be another
booklet offered that is a continuation of this same series.
R. Edward Miller
INTRODUCTION
Having filled this young woman with His Spirit, He gave to her
a most unique childlike spirit and a great spiritual thirst for
Jesus alone. In answer to her thirsting, He began to call her
away into His world. In prayer as she would seek His face and
pour out her heart before Him, as she would love and adore Him in
deep brokenness of spirit, suddenly without any pre-sensations,
she would be instantly caught away into His heavenlies and shown
wonderful things of the heavenlies and taught glorious things
both for her personally and regarding things to come, things
concerning the church and His dealings with other lives. Many
things are too personal or too high to be told. All things are
grossly lowered and almost destroyed by putting them into human
words and expressions.
She found great pain even in expressing them to me, her pastor,
for they suffered so much to be brought down into speech and
thought. The Lord Himself ordered her to tell her pastor
everything and this she does in simple obedience but not without
great pain and many tears and with the feeling of total
inadequacy of finding means of expression for things so high, so
holy, so totally unlike anything in this world. So only a faint
idea can be conveyed or obtained by these words. Yet because they
involve things to come concerning the world and His church and
being given the responsibility of receiving these things from her
directly, I feel that some things are to be shared.
It is to be remembered that this began directly after her
conversion right out of a pagan world in which she had no time
for scriptural instruction save in a few basics, so none of her
visions are based on a pre-knowledge in the Scriptures of things
they at times so closely parallel. I have most carefully examined
all these things in the light of my many years of experience and
scriptural and spiritual knowledge and find them above question.
They are not to be defended, neither taken as some strange dream
for the whole spiritual tone of both the recipient and the vision
itself raises them to a place of importance in showing forth some
hidden things in this last day and age. Not only this, but the
total change in the character, personality and spiritual
anointing all testify to the validity of the high ways the Lord
Himself came to teach her. He that hath ears let him hear.
She is taken away into the heavenlies and shown scenes in which
she participates and converses both with the Lord who reveals
Himself in constantly changing manifestations, but also at times
with the hosts of the many classes of angelic beings who
occasionally speak to her directly or converse with their Lord.
Many things she hears and understands she cannot remember at all
in her natural mind when she is returned from the trance. When
she is in a trance so far no noise nor manner has been able to
call her back until the Lord releases her. Many other things,
however, she is allowed to bring back and tell of that which she
hears. However, the things said and forgotten the Lord has told
her that when He is ready and the right time comes she will
remember them and will tell them.
These wonderful things are told as nearly as humanly possible in
the exact words and inflections as told to me in Spanish, using
her terms and her manner of comparisons rather than rewriting or
changing in any way. These have all been fully checked out by her
in careful perusal as there is a holy fear of making any mistake
or telling one word of His or one detail that was not seen,
described as closely as human words can tell.
These things were told to me in much pain and with many tears as
the fear of the Lord was upon her and the glory of the vision so
filled her that speech was at times most difficult, even though
usually several hours would elapse before we could find a quiet
time for conversing. After the evening service and the typical
late supper, we would meet in our home and there she would
slowly, laboriously and tearfully bring forth into human speech
these high and holy things.
She stated that before telling them they remained back low in her
being, not even in her memory, like she could recall other
things, but that somehow when she made the effort she could sort
of see deep within her like a replay. He had told her to tell
these things and also told her that He would watch to see if it
was correctly told. At one time she held back a difficult part
and could not sleep, feeling deep condemnation till the next day
when she could unburden her soul.
However, once they are told, they then come into her natural mind
and then she can talk about them all she pleases without the
slightest trouble and all objectively. But the first telling is
totally subjective and she bares her very inner being and at
times prayer must be made together that she find strength and
ways to be able to bring these things to light in our human
world. She is always most reluctant to discuss these things, even
refrains from thinking from thinking upon them and lives a very
normal, vivacious, happy life apart from these things. There is
never the slightest display of any self shown in bringing them
forth but to the contrary with the greatest reluctance and
timidity and self-effacement which gives yet another true mark of
their veracity.
The language used is very limited and simple and it is her own
words, translated directly into English as exactly as will make
sense. For this reason and for the emotional and subjective
manner brought forth will account for stilted and at times
unliterary expressions. Nor is this an attempt to write a book,
but rather to give an accurate record of things shown graphically
and wonderfully to a simple hearted child who is too new in Him
to have ever heard or read them before.
SOME OBSERVATIONS
A few observations of what she is shown may be of help. She is
carried into a world where all things are alive. She explains it
as if the life even in trees, stones, water or materials is so
manifest that it would be as if the human body were transparent
and the very life processes were visible within. Only in that
world even that is a poor comparison, for life is so totally
different from our world.
All things are of light. They radiate it. They are bathed in it
and the quality and quantity of this light has a great deal to do
with the order of beings the are, or with the order of importance
they are. It is a light so vastly different from the light of our
sun that she is incapable of finding any manner to describe it.
The light there lives, pulsates, radiates, is soft though
outshining any sun or star.
All things there are exceedingly soft and smooth, nothing is
harsh nor rough. All things are very sweet and endearing and
cause no harsh reactions nor awaken any fears of horror or of
anything monstrous even though all are so unlike any beings or
things seen in this world. All things are in great harmonious
perfection and in perfect harmony with each other. Nothing
clashes, nothing is disordered, nothing is dirty or sullied or
stained. Even works are done in perfect order and without trash.
All things are of greatest purity and perfection and there is
total holiness in all things. So purified and so holy are all
things that they are open and transparent. Nothing or no being
has anything to fear or to hide, nor would there be any hiding
place. No evil of any nature could stand to be in that place.
Holiness was evident in every being from the lowest to the
highest orders.
Every movement, every word, every thing and parts of things or
beings are marked by such harmonious unity and perfection.
Everyone there radiates great sweetness. Love is so often and
constantly manifested and in such various manners that it is the
one dominant note of all things everywhere. It is a love filled
with joy and harmony like a great chorus of love manifested
constantly and endearingly.
Each time she goes there she is received with such fullness of
joy and great tenderness. From the angelic beings there flows
forth constantly goodness and purity, purity of thought, of
actions, of all intentions in goodness. Their laughter and joy is
so celestial that it cannot find comparison here. So lacking any
type or kind of mockery, ridicule or scoffer. Even when she asks
questions that sound so stupid they laugh but so kindly that she
never feels rebuffed nor hurt in the slightest manner. She
describes it as a kind of laughter never seen in the world of
men, impossible to imitate or describe. Filled with pure love and
joy, tender and sweet, the beings there cause neither fear nor
shame.
All the movements, whether flying swiftly on outspread wings or
in other manner, move with great velocity but with such
smoothness and harmony of movement that there is never a harsh
maneuver, never a sudden or unthought move. Every movement is as
if pre-planned by some great will and wisdom that harmonizes all
things together.
The angels laugh, talk and converse among themselves, with Jesus
and at times with her but she has never been permitted to
remember any words that the angels speak to her. They sometimes
have wings and are of many different classes. She has been given
to see many different classes of angelic beings and of many
various orders of importance. Some are obviously much, much
higher than others and all seem to be related to their various
functions as will be seen by the visions recounted.
Yet none of these glorious beings are ever comparable to Jesus
Himself. He so outshines and out-loves so high above them that
they lose both importance and many times even interest at all.
One is only conscious that they are there and nothing more. They
one and all pale greatly beside the incomparable glory of Jesus
Himself. Just as beautiful grapes in a gorgeous arbor that
surround a pair of lovers so they lose importance in His
Presence. The angelic beings are always the same according to
their class and functions but Jesus reveals Himself in
ever-changing forms and beauties. Nor does He ever reveal Himself
in fullness at any one time for He told her that she could not
stand the fullness of that revelation at present.
The many visions have been of ever increasing importance and of
ever increasing complexity, beauty and greatness of celestial
order. To date, she has been granted many visions and obviously
many of these will not be written for the public. Others will be
recounted in part as showing forth some special thing regarding
the heavenlies or things there. It is important to note that as
she is shown various scenes which are the main item of the vision
she can see nothing till the Lord orders her to look. When she
first looks she sees nothing, but when He says to look the second
time she is then enabled to see what He intended for her to see.
Most substances she was given to touch have both form and
substance as well as light and life. She could both touch them
and carry them if they were small enough, but she could also put
her hands clear through them without destroying either their form
or substance. She said it could be slightly compared to passing
your hand through a ray of light with body, but at the same time
you could pick up that ray of light and carry it with you if you
so desired.
She found also that she was visible in her earlier visions when
they were given on a simpler plane in heaven. But she was
exceedingly tiny - about an inch tall but perfectly formed. This
troubled her so she asked the Lord why she was so tiny. He
answered that it was not because she had become tiny but rather
she was her actual, normal size. Rather it was because the
angelic beings were so very large. When the visions were taken
into higher realms of heaven she found there things so much
mightier and grander that she disappeared altogether and became
quite insignificant and of no importance whatsoever. Yet this
caused neither fear nor discomfort for she lost none of her
abilities to know, feel, understand or participate.
Always when she would come out the Lord would give her a special
brief portion of scripture for her to study.
INTRODUCED TO "THEM"
Her first introduction to the angels - whom she calls THEM-
was according to the following manner early in June of 1970.
The Lord called me to take time alone with Him. I obeyed Him and
as I was praying I suddenly saw a group of angels coming towards
me with Jesus in their midst. They were very large and I saw
myself very tiny before them. But much larger by far than the
angels was Jesus. I saw them; they were extremely large and oh,
so beautiful, with beautiful wings but at rest. All were
identical. They were all dressed with a cloth that appeared to be
woven out of pure light. It shone with great brilliancy,
irradiating light, shining and glorious. They moved so smoothly
with a most delightful harmony and grace and were so sweet and so
submissive. These angels had faces somewhat in the likeness of
men but not exactly, being indescribably different and so much
purer and nobler. Jesus also was dressed in a robe of light like
theirs but much brighter. I saw nothing to frighten me nor to
cause any unpleasant reaction although all was so different and
unexpected. The hands and feet of the angels were absolutely
lovely, delicate and beautiful. They expressed love and joy to me
both in tender looks and in the very presence of them.
During all this time I felt covered, absolutely covered with love
pure, warm and glowing all within me. it was like a fire that
would consume itself in me. Jesus was talking to them and I
listened and they listened. They did not talk to me this time.
Jesus talked to me and I understood everything He said. They
listened and laughed but I could not remember anything. Then He
suddenly returned me to my self and I was lying on the floor
feeling all warm and aglow with the warmth of His Presence still
upon me.
HIS FEET
A few days later still in early June she was in prayer and
again suddenly she was THERE. They were coming towards her and
Jesus was coming in their midst. When they surrounded her she was
in much fear. Jesus spoke to her and said, "Don't
fear!". These words produced a great peace within her. She
was weeping extremely and thought within herself that she was
losing her mind. Again Jesus spoke to her saying,
"Peace". Suddenly all the disturbing thoughts passed
from her and she found herself at His feet weeping greatly. She
continues:
He was sitting close beside me and I felt again that strange glow
of love begin to cover and fill me with glory and sensations
beyond words. I felt a great shame at being there and being so
utterly unworthy to be there. Something seemed to push me closer
to Him and I felt such a keen desire to touch His feet. I
continued weeping much, but weeping now out of pure love and
adoration that flowed out to Him. He told me that He was going to
teach me many things in this manner. Then I took courage and
expressed my desire and asked permission just to touch His feet.
He smiled so sweetly at me with a smile I cannot describe and
said, "Yes, you may". So I just moved over a little
closer and touched His feet as I buried my face upon them. Oh,
that touch! It was like a mighty impact almost unbearable but so
glorious. Like a mighty current of electricity flowing through
me. I began to feel like a little pat of butter on a hot fire, as
though I were being consumed. But at the same time I was not
consumed.
Later the pastor asked me if I had seen the wounds in His feet.
But I hadn't seen them because I was weeping too much to see
anything. Neither could I speak a word nor even think anything.
He began to speak much to me telling me how much He loved me and
that I need not have any fear. That I was to draw near to Him
very often and that this was not going to be the last time that I
would be given to see Him but that in this manner He was going to
teach me during this time. I was most conscious that all the
angels were watching me but I did not look at them any more. And
them He returned me to my room once more.
THE VISION OF THE CROSS
When I went into prayer on the 24th of June with a special
request on my heart, I was suddenly in the Spirit as at other
times. But this time in much fear and anguish of spirit, for my
pastor had suggested that I ask the Lord to show me His cross. I
was afraid that it would be asking too much and that He would be
displeased and not answer me. But Jesus said, "This request
is from me because I have desired to show you these things."
Although I was both ashamed and afraid at these words, He calmed
my fears and told me to look.
At first I found myself weeping greatly and pained, feeling the
sensation of death about me. I had the inner sense and knowledge
that I had been transported back in time to the time of the
crucifixion. I felt the anguish and pain and sensed that I was
actually participating in that very happening of His death, as if
I, too, were dying in deep, intense pain though not in the
physical. Rather as though it were a terrible pain of love. He
was there before me with all of His angels and I wept much for I
felt in that moment much agony. Neither could I look at either
Him or at them.
Second, being in this agony, I saw before me His body all
destroyed and terribly mutilated. His heart was exposed before my
eyes with His side a gaping wound. The part of Him most terribly
and horribly wounded was His heart. So tortured. So destroyed. So
mutilated. Yet it was still beating. His body was not upon the
cross but laid out before me. With all these terrible wounds His
heart was still beating.
I saw that His heart greatly overflowed with mighty love that was
far beyond words to tell. I could see this mighty love flowing
and flowing forth from that horribly wounded heart. I felt that
this love and this terrible suffering became fully identified
with my own person or being. This love was tremendous, powerful
and intense, passing by far the ability of even understanding it.
As I beheld and was identified with Him feeling the keen pain and
deep sorrow of it all, I saw His heart suddenly stop beating.
This Beautiful Being died. This tremendous love stopped flowing.
This being so loving and so filled with love was no more. This
caused to exist in my inner being an exceeding pain, perturbation
and grief. I seemed to die with Him. And now the stopping of that
heart deeply perturbed me. All that love stopped flowing and it
seemed that all the world stopped with it. Never in all my whole
life, not even when I tried suicide, had I felt such pain and
deep anguish. Agony! Pain! Horror! Anguish of spirit! All seemed
to be over.
Then suddenly I found myself in a third scene. Someone said that
I need not feel this pain and desperation any longer because He
was with me. Suddenly He was there before me glorious and alive
and strong. He drew near to me and as He drew near all the
anguish and pain left. I felt as if His glorious being seemed to
settle down over me and cover me with His love. Joy deep, strange
and glorious filled me to overflowing, filling all the place of
anguish and pain. There returned to me all the full, deep
security that He lived. Peace flowed forth from His glorious
PRESENCE. He spoke to me saying that never more would I feel the
pain of death. Never again would I have to pass through death as
this time. I knew then that I had been identified with Him in His
death, so was I now identified with Him in His life. That
wonderful heart of love over which I had so grieved was now alive
and would never die again.
THE PATH OF LIGHT
On the 21st of July, I was given to enter the realms of the
Spirit once again. The first sensation was of a most endearing
sweetness that surrounded me. Before me and even under my feet
was a pathway of pure celestial light that stretched way out
before me to the limit of my view. It was like a ray of purest,
harmonious light, like those rays that emanate from His own
person. This pathway was just my own size for I am very tiny in
that world. This pathway of light, long but wide, just wide
enough for me alone, crossed a deep and terribly dark abyss. The
deep darkness which bordered both sides of this pathway of light
was frightening. I was most conscious of its being there below
me, knowing within myself that it was an evil place. However, I
did not feel insecure but very protected because on both sides of
the pathway and arching up over the top like a covered bridge
were great, shining, beautiful angels. They lined the pathway and
made a tunnel for me of their bodies of light. They were the most
beautiful angels I had yet seen. They reached up so high I could
feel their kindness, goodness and tender love covering me.
The path of light with the bright shining of the many angels made
a tremendous way of light through all that darkness outside and
below me. I was so covered that I could not even see that great,
dark abyss below me. I do not even know how I knew it was there,
but I was keenly cognizant of its terrible waiting below me. I
felt neither fear nor weariness as I walked that way. On ahead of
me, I could see Jesus. He was not by my side in the pathway but
was on ahead of me.
As I walked, I felt so literally covered by love and sweet peace
as those heavenly beings shined forth on me. This path of light
was of real substance, of the substance that things are made of
there. Though it was light, it was tangible and substantial, and
I could feel it under my feet. It was not like a ray of light,
but was light in substance. It was a living light, for nothing
there is dead nor inert. All things are living. This pathway was
a living light and it was very beautiful.
THE POWERFUL JESUS
I was again permitted to enter into the Spirit, and I found
myself with Jesus and all of His angels. His love covered me as
ever and this time He showed me directly, His wounds. Oh, they
were so terrible. But even though they were great, ugly, painful
wounds, they SHONE FORTH RAYS OF LIGHT like living jewels in His
hands and feet. He showed me them as if they were His glory and
His pleasure, not His shame or His pain. And the love in me for
Him was so great, it was like great pain. Then He told me to look
and as I did, I saw off in the distance another Jesus, like a
complete twin of this lovely Person at my side. This other Jesus
- which I realized was the same Jesus but another manifestation
of Himself that He was showing to me was very clearly visible and
was suspended in the air.
He seemed full to overflowing with great, mighty POWER. Oh, how
powerful He was! Up until now, He had been so tender, sweet and
loving, gentle and kind that I had never realized His greatness
and power. He drew out from His being, even from all parts of His
great shining body, tremendous rays of pure power like mighty
lightning flashes only more powerful, much more prolonged and
much brighter. These He discharged in all directions sending them
forth as mighty surges of power. It was so impressive and so
astonishing. His power was so immense. Then I began to realize
how glorious but how awful also is Jesus. Then the Jesus at my
side spoke to me and said I was to carefully keep all the things
He had given to me and was yet to give me so that nothing be
lost.
*Annie Schisler along with her husband Ken, are pastors in Uruguay. If you wish to contact them, please send Email to: ksisler@adinet.com.uy
**We have shared with you only a few visions as narrated in the book "I look and I saw the Lord". by Dr. R. Edward Miller. If you wish to purchase the book, please send Email to: 102631.2014@compuserver.com.